Rant, Stress, and a celebration

Yes, all three in one post, haha. First, I suppose you should know, this is todays post. Yesterdays will come, I'm really proud of it, I actually went shooting. Vast majority of my 365 photo's, not that I post, but that I take lately, are, flash on camera, manual focus on something random, shoot, check focus, put camera down and study. Do that about 15 times a day, and I got a 365. Lol, upside doing that, I'm a much better manual focuser then before, which is good, because my favorite lens is manual focus. But, today's, and yesterdays, are real to semireal shooting, YAY!

Ok, nnow, for the rant/stress/celebration. First, the rant. I found out today, I will not be graduating with my gold chord. Less than 1% point away in multiple classes. If, in one class, I had done just SLIGHTLY better, I would be, but that's life, and I was the one who chose to take the biggest workload possible, and not what I'm mad about. What I'm mad about it, there are SO many people that are graduating with thier Gold chords, that never took any class they didn't have to, easiest possible schedules, and just cruised by. That is not worthy of a gold chord. Not at all. Then there are the Validictorians. People who got "A"'s in every class every semester of every year. We have 27 this year. Only a few earned it. One of my best friends, whom I'm immensly pround of for earning it, took as much of a workload as I did, and managed a perfect grade every time. She's thrown up thier, to share the pride, recognition, and honor with people who never did more than the most basic classes. To me, that's not a validictorian. But I digress, that's what it is, and I hate it.

Stress and Celebration, one and the same this post. I have been SUPER stressed about upcoming AP tests (for those that don't know, AP tests are when you take a college class in high school, and the test determines whether or not you get college credit. I have 5 tests! But, that's 15 credits, and I already have 6 on top of that!) Seems my life has been consumed by studying (as you will see by pic below). I haven't had much of a good feeling about them, but last night, we took an old AP test, one of the hardest one's they've given in a long time. Not only that, it was the AP physics Electonics and Magnetism test. Literally, THE hardest test offered at my school, confirmed by many many people who take so many AP classes, past and present. After all that, I got a 4!! Grading system is 1-5, 3+ passes, 5's are unheard of, 4's are amazing in every way. I even beat the people that I know are so much smarter than I am. I've been basically on cloud 9 ever since, you wouldn't beleive how much weight that takes off me! But I seem to be studying constantly as mentioned. Study while I eat, study while I chat, study basically any time but sleep. I'm going crosseyed, lol. I cought myself studying even during my workout today, which I found highly amusing, and thus took a pic, sooc. For those that read through that whole thing, thanks, it was a long post I know, and am sorry.

2 flashes, one up above me aimed at my back, one to camera right, aimed and snooted at my homework.